Living In The Danger Zone - Day 2 Week 1
On Day One I fell flat on my rotund ass and I realized that losing weight was going to be hard, hard, Hard. Not that I thought it was going to be easy. I’ve been on enough diets to know that it’s the hardest thing I will ever do. I’m not naïve but who screws up so badly on the first day? The first day is usually when you’re all gung-ho and eager to do well and live off of carrot sticks and yogurt.
Well Day 2 turned out worse than day one. I lumbered around all day with thoughts of food floating through my head. I knew it was going to start off crappy because I woke up tired and lethargic. I went to bed around 11:30 pm which is earlier than normal but I did not want to get up this morning. I probably ended up hitting the snooze button 5-6 times. My arms and legs felt like they were made of lead and I actually considered calling in sick to work. I’m pretty sure my blood glucose was out of wack but I woke up so late that I couldn’t check it. I felt 10 times better after I ate breakfast. Again, I had packed my breakfast and lunch the night before so I was all set. I left for work feeling optimistic and hopeful that today would not be a repeat of yesterday.
I did even manage to fight the evil cookie demons that reside in the lunch room and come out the victor. There were left over potato chips and cookies from a meeting. My co-worker Linda told me to make sure to take a cookie before they were all gone. I smiled politely but in my head I was thinking “hell NO!” I booked it from the lunch room and hid in my cube until I was certain the cookie monster inside of me was not going to take over and make me devour all the cookies in a trance like state. Now I know hiding from food in my cubicle is not courageous but it worked and until I get a better grip on my eating habits I will do what I got to do to stay away. Linda was right and the cookies and chips were gone in a matter of minutes. Yah! One less temptation to deal with and I’m proud that I stuck to my guns and didn’t give in.
But by the time I left work my resolve had crumbled. For some reason afternoon happens to be the danger zone for me. I had a lean cuisine for lunch and I was starving by the time I left work. I was also extremely tired and the thought of having to cook dinner seemed daunting. I was in a foul mood and my anxiety was rising. So, I relied on an old friend and old habits to help me through it. McDonald’s. I tired to be strong and drive passed without stopping but the golden arches seem to be calling to me and telling me it could make it all better. It could make my happy and releave my stress. A switch seemed to turn off in my brain and I went on auto pilot
without much thought. I went through the drive-thru and not only got a Big Mac meal but also ordered a quarter pounder to go along with it. I seriously cannot remember a single thought floating around in my brain as I ordered my food and drove home to eat it. I ate it all quickly and didn’t really taste it. Afterwards I needed a nap because I was so tired. I feel asleep around 6 and woke up around 9. After I woke up I felt extremely guilty and kept berating myself for that giant mess up. I tried to motivate myself by watching YouTube videos of people who are trying to lose weight. It was very inspiring and even thought I fu*ked up big time I still mustered up the strength to haul myself on my treadmill for 20 minutes and make my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow. I ended up staying up until 3:30 AM and realized I was going to be extremely tired tomorrow. I would pay tomorrow, especially since it’s the first day of my work’s Co-Ed softball practice. I regretted signing up and tried to think of excuses not to go. I tried to forget about it as I restlessly attempted to fall asleep. My only consolation is that tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to start over.
Breakfast (8 AM): Ham sandwich (2 slices whole wheat bread, 2 slices ham, 1 slice low fat cheddar, light mayo, spicy mustard, lettuce, tomatoes), a Diet Pepsi Max and 1 ½ ounces of pretzels.
Lunch: (1 PM): Spaghetti with meat sauce Lean Cuisine, ½ banana and Water.
Afternoon Snack (3pm): Orange
Dinner (5pm): Big Mac, Large fries, Quarter Pounder, Diet Coke.
Evening Snack (10 PM): Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich (yummy)
Late night meal (1:30 AM): 2 cups Healthy request chicken and egg noodle soup, 6 saltine crackers and water.
Total Calories Recommended: 1888
Total Calories Consumed Today: 3118
Difference in total Calories: -1230
Exercise: 20 minutes on treadmill
Thought for the day: Afternoon specifically after 3pm and later seems to be the danger zone for me. Not sure what happens at this time but twice now I’ve binged during this time. I have to find a way to break this trend or I will not lose any weight. I will probably gain weight if this keeps happening. Tomorrow I will try bringing extra snacks for the afternoon and see if that helps. I will also try to focus on eating healthy for dinner and try to visualize that so I don’t go back to my old habits and hit the drive thru.
Well Day 2 turned out worse than day one. I lumbered around all day with thoughts of food floating through my head. I knew it was going to start off crappy because I woke up tired and lethargic. I went to bed around 11:30 pm which is earlier than normal but I did not want to get up this morning. I probably ended up hitting the snooze button 5-6 times. My arms and legs felt like they were made of lead and I actually considered calling in sick to work. I’m pretty sure my blood glucose was out of wack but I woke up so late that I couldn’t check it. I felt 10 times better after I ate breakfast. Again, I had packed my breakfast and lunch the night before so I was all set. I left for work feeling optimistic and hopeful that today would not be a repeat of yesterday.
I did even manage to fight the evil cookie demons that reside in the lunch room and come out the victor. There were left over potato chips and cookies from a meeting. My co-worker Linda told me to make sure to take a cookie before they were all gone. I smiled politely but in my head I was thinking “hell NO!” I booked it from the lunch room and hid in my cube until I was certain the cookie monster inside of me was not going to take over and make me devour all the cookies in a trance like state. Now I know hiding from food in my cubicle is not courageous but it worked and until I get a better grip on my eating habits I will do what I got to do to stay away. Linda was right and the cookies and chips were gone in a matter of minutes. Yah! One less temptation to deal with and I’m proud that I stuck to my guns and didn’t give in.
But by the time I left work my resolve had crumbled. For some reason afternoon happens to be the danger zone for me. I had a lean cuisine for lunch and I was starving by the time I left work. I was also extremely tired and the thought of having to cook dinner seemed daunting. I was in a foul mood and my anxiety was rising. So, I relied on an old friend and old habits to help me through it. McDonald’s. I tired to be strong and drive passed without stopping but the golden arches seem to be calling to me and telling me it could make it all better. It could make my happy and releave my stress. A switch seemed to turn off in my brain and I went on auto pilot
without much thought. I went through the drive-thru and not only got a Big Mac meal but also ordered a quarter pounder to go along with it. I seriously cannot remember a single thought floating around in my brain as I ordered my food and drove home to eat it. I ate it all quickly and didn’t really taste it. Afterwards I needed a nap because I was so tired. I feel asleep around 6 and woke up around 9. After I woke up I felt extremely guilty and kept berating myself for that giant mess up. I tried to motivate myself by watching YouTube videos of people who are trying to lose weight. It was very inspiring and even thought I fu*ked up big time I still mustered up the strength to haul myself on my treadmill for 20 minutes and make my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow. I ended up staying up until 3:30 AM and realized I was going to be extremely tired tomorrow. I would pay tomorrow, especially since it’s the first day of my work’s Co-Ed softball practice. I regretted signing up and tried to think of excuses not to go. I tried to forget about it as I restlessly attempted to fall asleep. My only consolation is that tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to start over.Breakfast (8 AM): Ham sandwich (2 slices whole wheat bread, 2 slices ham, 1 slice low fat cheddar, light mayo, spicy mustard, lettuce, tomatoes), a Diet Pepsi Max and 1 ½ ounces of pretzels.
Lunch: (1 PM): Spaghetti with meat sauce Lean Cuisine, ½ banana and Water.
Afternoon Snack (3pm): Orange
Dinner (5pm): Big Mac, Large fries, Quarter Pounder, Diet Coke.
Evening Snack (10 PM): Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich (yummy)
Late night meal (1:30 AM): 2 cups Healthy request chicken and egg noodle soup, 6 saltine crackers and water.
Total Calories Recommended: 1888
Total Calories Consumed Today: 3118
Difference in total Calories: -1230
Exercise: 20 minutes on treadmill
Thought for the day: Afternoon specifically after 3pm and later seems to be the danger zone for me. Not sure what happens at this time but twice now I’ve binged during this time. I have to find a way to break this trend or I will not lose any weight. I will probably gain weight if this keeps happening. Tomorrow I will try bringing extra snacks for the afternoon and see if that helps. I will also try to focus on eating healthy for dinner and try to visualize that so I don’t go back to my old habits and hit the drive thru.
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