Harriet is a bitch! - Day 13, Week 2
April 19, 2008 (Sat)
W is spending the weekend with his friend’s Oliver and Jessica so I was left to my own devices. I was not sure what I was going to do since for the past 8 months we had spend almost every Saturday together. I was really glad that he got to hang out with Oliver and have some guy time but was bummed that I wasn’t invited.
I decided to go shopping and ran into my ex-roommate Erica at Target. I hadn’t talked to her in months since she can sometimes be a high maintenance friend. All my other friends call her the “princess”. Her and her fiancé Mike are getting married in a little over a month and she was getting last minute stuff. She invited me over for dinner since she was making lasagna and with no plans of my own I agreed.
I was regretting accepting her invitation since I really didn’t want to spend hours listening to her updates on her wedding. I decided I wasn’t going to go and tried to read a book instead. The book I’m reading is called ‘Shrink Yourself” and it’s all about how to overcome emotional eating. It’s really good and the psychologist who wrote the book really knows what he’s talking about. I could totally relate to the case studies in his book. I’m really hoping this can help me be more aware and present when I go into what he calls a “food trance”.
I tried reading but I wasn’t retaining any information. I kept wondering what W was up to. I was sure he was having so much fun that he wasn’t even thinking about me. I was convinced that being with his friends would make him realize how boring I was. My self consciousness and self doubt (I like to call it Harriet) was kicking my ass. The name Harriet comes form the book “shrink yourself”. It really helps to think of it as a mean spiteful person because I don’t want her to win. I felt pathetic that I felt lost without him and that it caused me such high anxiety. I decided that I would go to Erica and Mike’s place. It was better than sitting at home alone thinking about W. I’m glad I decided to go. I had fun and it was good to talk to them. They have both been going to counseling in preparation for their marriage and Erica seems to be less self involved than I remember. I enjoyed hanging out with them even though I was nervous about the lasagna she was serving. I had no idea how to determine the calories or size but the piece she gave me didn’t seem that large and I used the self food log to find the calories.
Afterwards I went home and got on the treadmill for half an hour. I was very proud of myself. I also went to sleep early. I was pretty good to my body this day. Harriet ass got kicked in the end.
W is spending the weekend with his friend’s Oliver and Jessica so I was left to my own devices. I was not sure what I was going to do since for the past 8 months we had spend almost every Saturday together. I was really glad that he got to hang out with Oliver and have some guy time but was bummed that I wasn’t invited.
I decided to go shopping and ran into my ex-roommate Erica at Target. I hadn’t talked to her in months since she can sometimes be a high maintenance friend. All my other friends call her the “princess”. Her and her fiancé Mike are getting married in a little over a month and she was getting last minute stuff. She invited me over for dinner since she was making lasagna and with no plans of my own I agreed.
I was regretting accepting her invitation since I really didn’t want to spend hours listening to her updates on her wedding. I decided I wasn’t going to go and tried to read a book instead. The book I’m reading is called ‘Shrink Yourself” and it’s all about how to overcome emotional eating. It’s really good and the psychologist who wrote the book really knows what he’s talking about. I could totally relate to the case studies in his book. I’m really hoping this can help me be more aware and present when I go into what he calls a “food trance”.
I tried reading but I wasn’t retaining any information. I kept wondering what W was up to. I was sure he was having so much fun that he wasn’t even thinking about me. I was convinced that being with his friends would make him realize how boring I was. My self consciousness and self doubt (I like to call it Harriet) was kicking my ass. The name Harriet comes form the book “shrink yourself”. It really helps to think of it as a mean spiteful person because I don’t want her to win. I felt pathetic that I felt lost without him and that it caused me such high anxiety. I decided that I would go to Erica and Mike’s place. It was better than sitting at home alone thinking about W. I’m glad I decided to go. I had fun and it was good to talk to them. They have both been going to counseling in preparation for their marriage and Erica seems to be less self involved than I remember. I enjoyed hanging out with them even though I was nervous about the lasagna she was serving. I had no idea how to determine the calories or size but the piece she gave me didn’t seem that large and I used the self food log to find the calories.
Afterwards I went home and got on the treadmill for half an hour. I was very proud of myself. I also went to sleep early. I was pretty good to my body this day. Harriet ass got kicked in the end.
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