The Big 3-0 in 7 months and 70lbs to lose.

Day before Day One
I turn 30 in a little over 7 months and I have decided that I do not want to be fat and 30. I weighed myself today and the scale read 231 lbs (gross). My birthday is November 17th and I plan to lose 70 lbs by then. This would put me at around 160 and I think this would be a good weight for me. I’ve wasted a lot of my teens and 20’s being too scared and too self-conscious to try new things or meet new people. I choose greasy pizza, fries, burgers, ice cream, tacos and my secret binges over family and friends. I am definitely a stress eater and my drug of choice is food. Nothing can make a bad day turn good better than a binge. I know that I have a problem and need to work on this so I need to be more aware of when I’m stressed so that I can stop my binges before they start. I need to get a grip before they begin because when I get an itch for a binge I will make it happen. I’m like a drug addict who needs his next fix. It’s like I’m in a trance and I do whatever it takes to get my binge fix. I don’t want to be like this anymore. I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes last year and I feel like such a failure because I could have prevented this if I had the will power to lose weight. My mom has had type 2 diabetes for close to 30 years. My mom is 25 years older than me, she is only 54 but she looks like she’s in her late 60’s because she never took care of herself or regulated her blood sugar. I can see what I will become in 25 years if I don’t make some positive changes now. She’s had toes amputated and has had triple bypass surgery; she has high cholesterol and high blood pressure. I don’t want to become her. I want to start the new phase of my life with a whole new outlook on life. My favorite saying is “if you always do what you’ve always done then you’ll always get what you’ve always got”. It is so true and I’m ready to change my ways and not get what I’ve always got but get what I’ve always wanted. I want to feel confident enough to be out going, adventurous and exciting. I want to be energetic and fun loving. Today is the day before Day One and I feel very confident and determined. Tomorrow I take the first step of the rest of my life (forgive my cheesiness). I know that I can do this and I hope I get feedback and encouragement from everyone on blogspot. I will chronicle my daily and weekly struggles with my weight loss and my victories. Everyday I will post what I eat and what I exercise and each Monday morning I will post my weight. Wish me luck!!! Oh yeah, below are my starting weight pictures. I am pretty disgusted and in disbelief that I am putting them on here for everyone to see but I told myself that i was going to be honest. You can't get more honest than this. And No I am not pregnant. Everyone in my family is apple shaped. Damn genetics!

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