I have a blog???

Wow, I totally forgot about this blog. It's been about a year and a half since I last posted and a lot has happened. Anyway, I think I was meant to find my blog again. I've been feeling pretty crappy this week. Down, sad, angry and eating way more than I have been in a long time. I wasn't sure how to get out of my funk and then this came along. Writing my feelings and frustrations down always helps. I plan to blog on here again. I want to update it daily or at least weekly basis. I plan to give you my thought on weight loss, what I eat, what I exercise and general life musings of this chubby 30 year old.

What has happened to date (from what I can remember with my almost none existent long term memory):

#1: My mom passed away last July (2008) of diabetes related complications. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her. Not a single day. RIP Mommy, I love you!

#2: I got laid off from my job last June (2008). I was unemployed for 2 months. Finally, I found another job that I love and co-workers that truly appreciate me. Plus, I get to finish my
bachelor's degree for free. I'm now taking my 5th class. I'll graduate sometime next summer.

#3. I turned 30 with no hoopla and at 233 lbs. Heavier than when I started this blog. Ick!
#4. This past January (2009) I went to Kauai with W for 10 days. It was the most amazing time of my life. I plan to go back real soon.

#5. W and I broke up this past June (2009). I was a complete mess for a long time. I feel like I'm completely over him and am ready to move forward.

#6. I bought a condo in the end of June. Woo hoo! I'm a homeowner!

#7. Since late March of this year (2009) I have lost 20+ pounds. As of last Sunday I weighed in at 212.2.

#8. Since I re-began (is that a word?) my weight loss journey, I've been vlogging on youtube. Who knew YT had an amazing, supportive weight loss community.

Ft. Lauderdale


#9. I'm leaving for Fort Lauderdale Florida next Wednesday with my roommate/best friend L and my gay "husband" P. We will be there for 5 days. I need sunshine.




#10. Something I thought I would never be able to do. I have not binged in a long time. I actually cannot remember the last time. I keep beating down the binge monster and with each subsequent beating I get stronger and his voice gets quieter.

Cute dress & bathing suit I bought for my Florida Trip.














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