On a mission to live a healthy, happy, life and lose 100 lbs along the way!

School • Get my homework in by Wednesday • Make a study schedule and stick to it. Writing • Update my blog at least once a week • Write 8 pages for my book. This is 2 pages a week.(I’m writing a Young Adult novel) Eating • Try making at least one intimidating recipe (I like to keep it simple) • Stay under 1800 calories (Currently at 1900) • Quit drinking Diet Pepsi • No fast food (I gave it up for lent) • Go to bed my 11:30 every night Exercise • Try one scary class at the gym (I am so uncoordinated) • Focus on core when doing strength training (I hate anything that makes me use or attempt to use my weak stomach muscles. Personal • Try really hard to only think positive thoughts of myself (Wearing a rubber band that I snap when I catch myself thinking self deprecating thoughts) • Wash my face every night before bed no matter how tired I am Weight loss • Lose 6 lbs my March 28th (The last Sunday in March) o My Reward: Get a pedicure (If my to...

Ugh, this weekend was utterly horrible food wise. It’s almost as if Friday night I got “healthy lifestyle” amnesia. I slipped back to my old ways. No, I not only slipped but I fell and tumbled down the hill on my butt and then banged my head on a rock before landing in a vat of butter. Not really sure what happened or even why. I guess that’s the problem. When I get in this mode I don’t really try to analyze where it’s coming from. I just do what it says and stuff my face with food. I really need to stop and think or maybe write down what I’m thinking at the time. So Saturday night as I lay in bed in a food coma, I really tried to figure out what the issue was and why I was eating like food was going out of style. It’s the only way I could think of stopping this vicious cycle and honestly I don’t know how much longer the button on my favorite jeans can hold. I picture it popping off and flying across the room and taking out my little dog. It got so bad in fact that I almost went...

Why is it that when I bumped up my exercise on Spark people from 3 times per week to 5 times per week it lowered my calories? Yesterday, working out 3 X it said my calorie recommendation was 1710. Today working out 5 x per week it now says 1550. Makes no sense I tell you. It must be some new fangled math. I'm still sticking with 1800 calories since I know it works. My TOM is coming soon and my skin feels like an oil slick. I also went to bed with fairly clear skin and woke up with 5 massive zits along my jawline. Seriously my jawline looks like the surface of the moon. I hate being a girl sometimes. Today at work I saw an overweight co-worker wearing forest green stir up pants with tapered legs that were about 5 inches to short for her. I wanted to hug her and tell her that just because she’s over weight she does not need to give up. She does not need to disguise her plump legs in the most hideous pants possible. This does nothing to camouflage her extra weight. All it does it ...

So today had the opportunity to turn bad real quick. I was racing around like a maniac this morning trying to get out the door by 9 AM, practically the crack of dawn for me. I know, I know, but I hate mornings. I realized after reading old blogs that when I had to be at work at 7:30 AM every day, I had to take a nap in my car to make it through the day. I’m so glad I get to start at 9:30 now, no more car naps. Anyway, I planned on working out at the fitness center at work. It’s free and in the same building as my work and I would be insane not to take advantage of it. So I grabbed my gym bag that I had packed the night before and grabbed my purse and out the door I went. I was about 2 blocks away and realized that I had forgotten my lunch bag. Nothing had seemed amiss since I had two things in my hand when I left, my gym bag and purse. I checked the clock and realized it would take too much time to turn around and get it. Damn! This means I have no breakfast, I have no lunch, and ...

So after a month of no exercise and a month of feasting on burgers, fries, pasta, ice cream, and tons and tons of carbs (basically any damn think I wanted) I finally got on the scale. I naively thought that perhaps I was up a couple of pounds. No big deal, I was slowly getting back to the gym and had gone twice already that week. No matter what my oh-to-tight-pants were telling me, I was convinced I had gained maybe 2-3 pounds. Half asleep and grumbling I expectantly got on the scale. I waited impatiently for the scale to confirm what I already knew. The red LED lights blinked as it calculated. I gave a start when the red glaring lights read 220.4 lbs. OMG!!!! How had I gained 9.4 lbs in a month? How is that physically possible when I wasn’t binging? How is that possible with no gland disorder? How, how, how? After careful consideration and a lot of swearing I was able to deduce that although I was not binging like I used to I was eating way too many calories than I shoul...